I was waiting to hear from James all of last week because he had promised Trevor that he would pick him up and spend the whole day with him on Sunday. I called him 22 times and my Mom called him every hour. And he didn't answer. Trevor was heartbroken. Finally, I reached James and told him he had to pick Trevor up. So he did. FOR 28 MINUTES. Mom met me at the church so I could get Trevor. She said he had been kind of weepy. On the way home from the church, Trevor started crying. He wanted to know if it was something he had done. So, I told that it wasn't him. He then started making excuses for his Dad about how he's working two jobs. But then I asked him...if I worked two jobs would I make time for him? YES! was his answer. He then jumped in with, "So would Kevin". Then he really started crying because he wanted to know why Kevin makes time for Leeandra and calls and never misses anything she does. I didn't know what to say to that....other than James is trying to the best he can. Trevor kept crying and said his Dad only picks him up one time out of ten. So I told him he needed to tell his Dad all of this. The problem? James is a natural at BS-ing. By the end of the call, he had promised Trevor he would pick him up every Sunday. I told Trevor not to get his hopes up because his Dad doesn't always follow through. He cried all night. And hugged Kevin. And kept saying what a good Dad Kevin is. It was breaking my heart. He told me he's going to tell Kevin what a good Dad he is one day when he's had a bad day at work. According to Trevor, "That would make his day!" My sensitive boy...always thinking of other people's feelings. Love that kid. I told Trevor that Kevin had two Fathers to show him how to be a Dad.
Okay...so now I'm going to piss off some other people, but I'm tired of it. I said that if there was something intended for a specific person, they would know.
Tim, this is for you. Why can't you call your son? Or stop by? I work later than he does. Are you too stubborn? Do you know what he felt like when he went to a church breakfast and they said you moved to Bradford? Does that mean that you drive through Wyanet and don't stop? I've tried being the bigger person when you pass and I wave...so does Kevin. Why don't you even acknowledge us? Do you have a phone? How does he reach you? I know you said you wanted to cut off all ties with him, but really, after seeing both my husband and son hurting, it kills me. Is it me? What did I do to you? Do I love your choice in fiance? No. But I'm not the one marrying her. Just like you probably wouldn't have chosen me for Kevin. You don't have to like me, but Kevin is your flesh and blood. And if you're jealous of Ray, you should be. He returns phone calls. And visits. It's about being there for each other...as a family. And yes, the Spears side invites us to things. That's why there are pictures on our blog of Spears events. Oh, and all of those Sights family events that Sarah was at? Why didn't you invite your son? Don't worry about me. Next time, call him....I won't come. I promise. But I won't be the reason you don't talk to your son. Or am I just an excuse because you realize that for the last few years you've been a really crappy Dad? Well, you're his Dad and he loves you. Regardless of what you think. Call him sometime. Our home number is (815) 699-2454 (in case you didn't know).
There. I've said my piece. And am feeling much better.